Why on earth would I willingly torture myself? All I can do is shake my head at myself.
One night among many nights that I could not sleep, I went to YouTube to watch videos. It truly is amazing what you can find when you can’t sleep.
On this particular night I found videos about decorating planners. It was so much fun to watch and think, could I do this. Sure why not? I can do it as well as the next person. So I began thinking why not, but then I realize I don’t use the type of planners that they use in the videos and I am not going to go out to buy one just so I can decorate a planner. A planner that I will more than likely not use, so I threw out that idea. However, I decided that I still liked the idea of decorating so I transferred the ideas to my written journal.
My written journal….a place I can put my ideas, a place I can put my frustrations, a place I can vent without being made to feel awful. And so I began to decorate my journal and found I truly do enjoy decorating. I get to use smiley faces with all sorts of emotions. I get to use stickers with all sorts of designs to go along with my writings. So now I am back to thinking about decorating my planner. LOL again shaking my head.
I don’t plan to go overboard with the decorating, but who ever plans for that? At least, I am going to try to not go over board with the decorating. I have bought sticker paper so that I can make my own style of stickers. (So much for not going overboard.) At least I will make my own and not buy a bazillion stickers and washi tape; which by the way I was starting to do that and decided that I just needed to stop.
You would think that by not being allowed to drive, I would have a problem with getting to the store to buy things. And to a point that does prove to be a problem; I just wait for my hubby and the kids to get home and have them take me where I want to go. Even though they really don’t want to, they do it just the same. The reasons are long and convoluted, and for another rant and another day.
Today was my first day for a class that I am taking at church. The first assignment, was should I say, uncomfortable. You have to be honest in your answers and on several of the questions I found at least 2 answers that would fit. SMH. Right now I have not idea if I am overbearing or am I a follower. Fairly certain that I am not a follower in most incidences, but who knows. I do know that I fit 2 of the categories.Well I have a whole week till I find out if this is a good thing or not. LOL. The lessons look interesting and so does my Bible study with my life group.
For those of you that want to argue about my belief in God, let me say this. I would rather to believe in God while I am alive and find out HE doesn’t exist when I die, instead of NOT believing in God and then after my death to find that HE did exist. I will gladly answer any questions you have based on my belief. I can’t make you believe but I can give you answers and I can even get you a bible if need be. I am not going to argue with you just so you can prove your point. As long as you civil with me, I can get along with you.
Hot dog!!! I found a new flavor I like to marinate my tofu in. Marinate tofu…. you say? Yes you must marinate your tofu if you want flavor when you eat it. I don’t mind eating it plain but I find that I really like to have flavor with my tofu.
First things first, you must drain your tofu. There will be alot of water in the container and in the tofu. Tofu loves to absorb everything and anything you place it in. Like when I make my Tofu Parmesan; I cook it and then let it set for 3 days in the refrigerator. At the end of the 3 days, the tofu has alot of the mix absorbed and it gives you a very pleasant experience.
Drain the tofu…..? (scratching your head, are you?) Well what I do is take the tofu out of the packaging and place it in a hand towel on a plate. I make sure that the tofu is covered in the towel and then I place something heavy, namely my cast iron skillet and on top of that I place a heavy bottle of veggie oil. This allows the tofu to be pressed and makes it easier to absorb the flavor you want.
You can eat the tofu in any manner that suits you. I love to eat it in stir fry and in that I use zucchini, sweet potatoes, mushrooms, any veggie that strikes my fancy. I also use Jasmine brown rice. The Jasmine brown rice seems to also absorb the flavors you use. So the meal is always awesome. Sometimes I find I don’t make enough and then I have to pout. LOL.
Okay so for today’s lunch I heated up my tofu that had been marinated in Sweet chili pepper sauce. I cooked it up in a frying pan with mandu and buckwheat noodles. That is a wonderful lunch; so flavorful and so filling. I also got to eat all this with my steel chopsticks. I found them by accident a few weeks ago and it was great because I was curious if they made them in other materials than wood or bamboo. I got my answer.
I am so heartbroken; please bare with me as I go through this. I turned on my television yesterday; I found myself not wanting to watch another Christmas movie. Hallmark channel has been playing them since Halloween. (SMH). So I went to my detective shows and that channel was presenting the stories of 4 black men that had been lynched. 3 of the men were in southern states and 1 of the men was in upper New York.
You have to understand, I am a white lady raised in the South; mainly Georgia in the years of growing up that shaped me to who I am today. I was raised that I am not better than my neighbor and they are not any better than me. We all get up in the morning and put our pants on the same way. I was taught to think of us as being a box of crayon. We each have our purpose.
I am naive and I know I am; but maybe I am silly I don’t know. I truly thought we had all gotten past hate and racisim. I suppose that it is here and I choose to ignore what is there. I just don’t understand how there can be so much hate. Yes the black culture got a raw deal in the beginning and their history makes them wary.
I just don’t understand how one human being can mistreat another human being. It breaks my heart. I know there are other issues and I can’t go into them. But to lynch a black man because he liked, or he was dating, or even looked at a white woman is beyond my comprehension.
To further break my heart, it would seem that people that were going to the police to try to help solve these murders were dying in one manner or another. So many people have information and are scared to death to bring it the proper authorities.
Here is the worse thing about it. They were all labeled as suicides. Now mind you everything is one sided and I can only go on with what was presented; but these 4 men don’t seem to have committed suicide.
I wish things were not like this and everyone could get along.
I haven’t been on here in quite a while. I have been trying to learn the Korean language. Let me tell you, it truly is not easy when you are self teaching yourself a new language. I do believe that I am going to need to find a group of people that speak Korean and see if they can help me with my progress. So far I am doing okay. I found a translator with Google; so it allows me to have a Korean keyboard to type with. It allows me to see what it says in English; sometimes the translation is out of its mind. And the other nice tool it has is a speaker that allows you to hear what you typed. I have found that Youtube has some really good videos of people willing to teach a different language.
And in the middle of all this learning, someone requested that I make 4 quilts for Christmas. Yes I am getting paid, but I can’t believe I let myself get into a project of the magnitude before Christmas. I won’t do this again. ROFLMBO!!! Stress levels are running high and I am still dealing with my Dad’s passing. My birthday was a hard one to deal with, knowing I would not get his “Forest Gump” phone call.
I love to knit, but due to my health issues that I am finding that the thinner the yarn is, the more trouble I have handling it. I don’t know if it is from the Carpal Tunnel or the Neuropathy. Not that it really matters, the fact remains that I still can’t work with the thinner yarns and that is depressing.
So what can I do if I lose my ability to use my hands the way I want? SMH. I am not giving up just yet but I can see it is in my near future and it is sad knowing this. How do people deal with the reality that what they consider their everyday life is coming to an end and knowing that they have to create a new life. I am not sure that I am ready for this. I know my precious Abba has my life in his hands and I know he will take care of me, yet It is still worrisome. I know from my Bible and from my experience through life, that worrying about anything will not change the outcome and I will probably end up with an ulcer. So I need to just stop and let God handle this.
I have been trying to get Disability and that is another headache. I feel like I am being treated like I don’t want to work and I really do want to work. SS has decided that I can do light work so I can’t qualify. I asked what light work was considered as. I was told that it meant that I could answer phone calls, stuff envelopes, and make copies. So please tell me who hires for that kind of job?
And on top of all this, I have been sick all week. What a bummer!!! I had to miss my LIfe Group due to me being sick. I am so about done with all this Hot Mess I find myself in. Oh well this is my life at the moment.
I love the sweet ladies that my precious Abba has placed in my life. We meet on Friday mornings for our Life Group(Bible study) and they like to go to lunch sometimes. They ask me to come along but I always have to say No, even though I would love to go with them. My birthday is this month, so they treated me Cheesecake Factory. It was such a pleasant surprise, and such a joy spending time with them, just to have time to talk. Two new ladies came to the luncheon and they are going to join us on Fridays and it is so awesome to see our little group growing. Though I have to admit, not sure if they can place any more tables in my leaders house, maybe one more. Well actually they might be able to put 2 more tables in the shape of an “L”. What a beautiful thought, to have so many ladies studying God’s word.
I have recently found that I am having trouble with my memory and trying to complete a full sentence. So I am thinking outside the box, and trying to learn a new language. So I decided to learn Korean. I have found that it is not as hard as I would have thought. I found a place that appeared as a Korean Newspaper office and it does have newspaper, but apparently it is a Korean library. So I can’t wait to start borrowing books from them. I want to increase my vocabulary, now mind you that I have just started so I don’t know a lot of words but I know more than 12 so I think that is pretty awesome. And the ladies at the library work with me so my pronunciation is as close as it can be. I have always heard that Korean people as a whole were very pleasant and kind and they love when you try to learn their language. And I experienced this yesterday while I was at the library. I can’t wait to go back. Out of my vocabulary words, the word for telephone is going to drive me insane. I can read it on my flash card but to try to remember it without the card is an impossibility. So I can see this flash card will stay with me as I learn other words. It has been a lot of fun. The other reason I am doing this is because I have gotten into watching Kdramas. (Korean television shows).
The things your brain leads you to do.
I have spent all morning and part of the early afternoon, logging in my son’s schedule for this year. I am blown away by how many dates are taken up for him. It seriously makes my head spin. He is only involved in Chorus at school and the Boy Scouts and yet he is super busy. January and February makes me tired just looking at his activities. I haven’t added my things yet to the calendar, it is just amazing how much he has going on. His homework level has finally picked up. I think this year is going to prove that he will have to work to keep his grades where they are.
I loved the pictures of your trip and I love the colors you chose on your block picture. I read to my hubby the part about you not making the pillow for your new couch and he laughed because he knows the feeling. I quilt, I knit, I sew; so he never knows what is going to come out of my sewing room.
Well my guys are always complaining that our meals are becoming blah and wanted something different. So I have been looking and looking and it took me quite a while to come upon the idea of trying cultural dinners. I am slowly learning Korean so I decided to make a Korean dinner. I decided we would try a Korean menu. We got a recipe to make noodles and veggies. We have a friend that is an awesome cook and he gave me a recipe to BBQ chicken using Korean sauces and spices, basically things that this Georgian girl would not normally use. He directed me to our local Asian market, which by the way I did not know even existed. I love finding new places and businesses to visit and spend my money. My son and I went into the Asian market and there were so many things to look at and see. I ended up getting a tour by the Manager LOL. I found out that the proper way of looking for sweet potato noodles, is to call them correctly Yam Noodles. The amazing thing I found was that once you had everything cooked and all the flavors together that the noodles absorbed the flavor of everything. What a wonderful experience!!! The Yam noodles are very light, even though the package feels heavy, which by the way I think it is just because the noodles are wrapped up tight. Once you let them loose, they feel very light and they are not heavy while eating them but you will fill up fast and stay hungry. Back to the absorption, if you know anything about tofu and understand how to marinate and cook tofu; that tofu absorbs the flavors you marinate and cook with. These noodles are so much better. I will be using these again and I will be using this recipe, because it does not affect my diabetes. This is always a plus sign.
However, I did cheat with the chicken, though, instead of using the BBQ marinate recipe that our friend gave us, I used a bottle marinate, a sweet chili spice, and it was not at all spicy. It does have a small kick but nothing I couldn’t handle and that is saying a lot. So now I have to think if I want to try another Korean recipe or should we go to another culture, which I so not opposed to. We are not giving up on the BBQ recipe but we are just going to use it on a different night. I can’t wait!!!
A few of my online friends and I decided we would experiment with a pen-pal letter writing campaign. In the beginning, I wasn’t sure anyone would write me. Yet out of 6 people, I receive letters from 5 people. It is awesome. You never know when or if a letter will be in your mailbox. The excitement is overwhelming when you find that letter from a friend waiting for you in your mailbox. It takes everything I have to not open the letter until I get to my back room. I have to go to my back room, because that is where I have a table set up for writing my friends back. Sometimes I write the letters, sometimes I have to type the letters but that doesn’t take away from the experience. It is so exciting to hear from a person, sometimes they are just across the country in another state and sometimes they are across the ocean in another country.
I love learning about these people and their lives. I Skype with one friend that is in Germany. It so much fun to be able to see my friend and talk with her. We talk about anything from government to Doctor Who to our pets. It is truly a nice experience, to meet new people. People that you have life experiences in common, despite the miles.
I got another letter today and I love the fact that I know my friend is going to get a vacation, something she hasn’t had in many years. I can’t wait to hear about her trip and the things that she will do.
My Skype friend, went to Spain and then to Wales to which point that she went to Cardiff to enjoy the Doctor Who experience. I would love to have been there with her but since I couldn’t, it was great to hear the things that she did. The pictures are great, even more fun when she tells me the story behind them.